The word stable never carried much weight before. But, today the word stable is a lightning rod of hope. My PET scan showed stable disease!
Which means the drugs I am on are still working! HUGE, SIGH OF RELIEF. This is really great news because the current endocrine therapy I receive has minimal side effects and a very high quality of life. The fear is eventually their impact will lesson, but we don’t live in the perceived future. Today – they are working! Halleluia!
Yet, in my joy and relief I am pained with sadness. Sadness for a dear friend who died this week- one of the most beautiful, vibrant souls I have had the chance to meet along this journey. Sadness for several friends whose tests this week revealed progression and now face the scary process of changing treatments… Sadness for friends whose treatments are working, but cause them so much pain and fatigue that the treatment itself is destroying them.
It’s hard to celebrate when you know the reality. It’s hard to celebrate when friends are crying… and others, dying. But, I know that those friends would encourage me to live in this moment of health and joy. Live in it fully and embrace it with gratitude. Because we have seen the sadness and felt the pain, I think we feel the health more deeply. And, we see the joy more clearly… even in the littlest things.
I’m grateful beyond words for this continued time of health and strength visit homepage. Next Saturday I will run the Kentucky Derby 1/2 marathon as part of the Hope Scarves Outrunning Cancer team. Two years ago I wouldn’t have thought this possible. I’m not sure my hips think it’s possible this year…but I am doing it. One foot in front of the other for 13.1 miles. Each mile for a friend battling advanced cancer. If you would like to show your support please make a donation at www.runsignup.com/lara Money raised supports the nonprofit I am honored to lead (Hope Scarves) and metastatic breast cancer research.
I am outrunning cancer for:
5- Mary Eleanor
7- Dianne Marie
13 – me & our family
With gratitude and a full heart I will put one foot in front of the other, rain or shine on April 30th thankful for this time of health and stable disease. I will laugh, cry, love and help others. This time will NOT be wasted. Each day is a gift.
Time to do something big…