Hope Scarves proud to be part of new approach to research… The MBC Project

screen-shot-2016-11-04-at-1-23-04-pmHope Scarves is an Advocacy Partner with MBC Project and honored to lend our voice to help share the story of this exciting research.  May these efforts lead to better understanding of metastatic breast cancer, inform research and lead to more treatment options.  Our lives depend on it!

This AP article has now reached over 5,000 news outlets!

http://www.cbsnews.com/news/crowdsourcing-effort-takes-aim-at-deadliest-breast-cancers/

If you have metastatic breast cancer – please join our efforts.  It’s simple. And, we truly believe the most innovative research being done today to study patients with the hopes of understanding and better treating this disease.

If you have questions patient to patient – please email us!  hello@hopescarves.org

 

Damn it.

This week I reconnected with two friends I hadn’t spoken with in years. Friends who faced cancer around the same time as me in 2007, 2008. We had helped each other through chemo & reconstruction in our early 30’s. And celebrated milestones as we lived beyond cancer… As our lives moved on and cancer was behind us we lost touch a bit.

Now, we reconnected. Because, cancer came back for each of them- stage iv metastatic breast cancer. Damn it.

As we spoke, they each had the same questions – How do you live life with such joy? How do you stay healthy in the face of this disease?

Deep breathe.

I encouraged them to take it one day at a time. To not live in the perceived future, but to focus on the day before them. With tears in my eyes, I quoted my dear friend Mary Ann,

“If you had 5 minutes to live, would you spend one second being sad?”

Mary Ann was a shining bright light of hope, an inspiration to me each day. She is an example of how to live life over cancer.   She died.    I told them that too. No reason to hide the facts.

The reality of this disease is you live each day with joy and gratitude… and the knowledge that this disease kills 111 people every day. Every single day.

The reality is my friend Colleen who on October 27 posted “I had CT scans of my chest, abdomen, and pelvis and a bone scan. I am thrilled to report it all came back stable! I will stay on my current chemotherapy and resume tomorrow.”

Then, on November 3rd she wrote that she was entering Hospice. Because the 7 brain mets she was also in aggressive treatment for were not responding. There is nothing more the doctors can do. She has two young girls.

How do you help friends enter this reality… it’s such a damn roller coaster. On one hand I tell them they can still live a full, joyful life. That treatments might not be that bad… that they might have a long durable response, as I have. That we hold on for science.  Research is leading to new treatment options… lots of reasons to be hopeful.  But, the reality is we don’t know how to stop it.  I don’t know how long my good health will last… I don’t know when cancer will progress and I will change treatments… when the ground will fall out from under me. Because, the reality is, It will.5-minutes

I am so angry at cancer. It steals hopes and dreams and laughter. It robs children of moms and dads. It denies young people the chance to grow old…

In my frustration I fall back on Mary Ann. She didn’t know how long she had to live well. How long she had with her three children on this earth. But she knew the time she had was going to be beautiful.

 

That’s what I know too. Damn it.

 

Living in the light… not the darkness,

Lara

 

Living life over metastatic breast cancer

belize-itI was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2007 at the age of 30, seven months pregnant with our second son. Our world came crashing down–yet through it all, we were focused on hope. Our doctors, friends and family–everyone–believed we would “beat” cancer. And, we did.

I was the poster child for beating cancer. Literally–I was on a poster for a local cancer organization. I ran marathons, climbed mountains, raised our kids with joy and confidence that cancer was behind us. I turned this scary time in my life into something positive to help others by starting a nonprofit organization called Hope Scarves. We collect scarves and survivor stories and pass them on to others in treatment. Since our founding in 2012, we have sent more than 6,000 scarves to people facing over 90 types of cancer in every state and 12 countries. Our oldest recipient is 92 and our youngest, 5. By sharing our stories, we find common ground and process what has happened. We pass along our strength to others.

Yet, in those first years, Hope Scarves was just like so many other cancer organizations blindly telling the “happy side” of cancer. We were focused on survivorship. At a YSC conference in New Orleans, a mother donated a scarf and story in memory of her daughter who had died of breast cancer. I kindly took the story and hugged this shaking mom. But, I tucked that story away, thinking, “We are hope scarves. Not sorry-for-your-loss scarves.” I didn’t want to share sad stories.

How short sighted of me.

In 2014, I developed pain in my low back, which I assumed was from trail running. But, an MRI revealed every cancer survivor’s worst nightmare. Metastatic breast cancer. Cancer had spread to my bones. After seven glorious years, our family was thrust back into the world of cancer. Only this time it wasn’t hopeful. My husband and I have always been the type of people who make a plan and execute. We get things done. But, there wasn’t a clear path. We were devastated to learn my treatment plans would be to “wait and see.” “We will start with this drug and see how long it holds the cancer in check. But, it will progress and then we will try a different treatment. There are many drugs to try, but eventually we will run out of options…“

Confusion. Disbelief.

After all the pinkness–the races, the walks, the soup cans and our society doing just about every possible thing you can imagine “for a cure”…this is the best you’ve got? I was floored. Angry, depressed, numb. How could this be? I fell into a dark depression. I would be responsible for the single most devastating thing my young kids would experience–watching their mom get sick and die. How could this be happening? This diagnosis was nothing like my stage II diagnosis,when people came out of the woodwork to encourage me and share their success stories. This diagnosis was isolating. Terrifying.

Then, I met Mary Ann. She also had MBC, but her laughter and smile didn’t show it. Mary Ann grabbed both my hands, looked me in the eye and said, “If you had five minutes to live, would you spend a second being sad?” She helped me see hope isn’t just found in medical breakthroughs and good scans. It’s found in a hug, laughter and simple moments of living life over cancer. Mary Ann helped me live again.

Mary Ann died this year.

As I watched friend after friend progress with this disease, I found organizations and people who were working to change the landscape of metastatic breast cancer. I also learned that people in the metastatic community felt so disappointed and left behind by the “pink machine” that they created their own ribbon–it’s teal and purple with a little pink. They created new names like metavivor, forever fighter, lifer. They are defining what it means to live with stage IV cancer.

I am so thankful for their work and the growing movement to bring metastatic breast cancer to the forefront, but more than anything I am upset. The most sick, afraid and hurting of all breast cancer patients felt so alienated by the movement set out to help them that they created their own ribbon. They condemn the pink ribbon. How did an effort set out to “cure breast cancer” become so short sighted?

And, I was one of them. I was naively focused on survivorship and beating cancer at Hope Scarves–sharing happy stories of people who kicked cancer and went on to live happy, healthy lives.

So, starting with my own organization, I made changes. We stopped saying words like “beat cancer” and instead, we say, “face cancer.” We don’t collect survivor stories at some magical point when you move from a patient to a survivor. No, you can share your words of encouragement and hope at any point. From the moment cancer touches your life, you are surviving. You have a story to tell.

It’s not about living life after cancer. It’s about living life over cancer.

But, more than anything it comes down to research. We expanded Hope Scarves’ mission to invest in metastatic breast cancer research. And, to date, we have committed $150,000. Think of the impact we could make if EVERY breast cancer organization dedicated a portion to metastatic breast cancer research. How quickly the depressing 3% given to research would increase. Could we accelerate the pace of discovery to change treatment plans from waiting for the cancer to grow to stopping it? Could we extend lives? Could we save lives?

What if, instead of metastatic patients feeling alienated, they become the VERY CORE of the pink movement? The deepest,

Dianne is the face of breast cancer. Mother of two young boys. Daily whole brain radiation

 most vibrant pink of all. Early stage survivors would celebrate their health and then DEMAND more money for metastatic research. Because the reality is, once cancer impacts you, the chance of reoccurrence is 30%. It doesn’t matter what stage you were originally diagnosed or how long time passes. But, if research can find a way to make this a chronic disease instead of a DEADLY disease–every one of us in pink is better off.

We, as a breast cancer community, HAVE TO BE the driving force to make this happen. We can’t just celebrate the happy stories. We must tell the WHOLE STORY.

My goal is simple–I want metastatic patients to be the core of the breast cancer movement. For each of us to feel supported through more research dollars, encouraged by early stage survivors, understood and not forgotten.

Raise your voice. Demand more money for metastatic breast cancer research. Reach out to someone facing stage IV breast cancer.

Together, we can ALL live life over cancer.

Here are some ways you can help right now: