I just want to send a simple thanks to everyone who has reached out to me after my post yesterday and throughout this journey. I am so amazingly blessed to have so much support and encouragement. Writing has always been an important outlet for me and I appreciate the opportunity to share my thoughts, fears and dreams with you. I am trying really hard. I went for a long walk today and felt good. But, my lower back has really been bothering me and I can’t help but think it is more cancer. I have to learn to live with this fear and find courage and strength in the face of the fear.
I have connected with a group of young women living with metastatic breast cancer through a Hope Scarves supporter and friend also facing this disease. Knowing there are other women out there trying their darndest to live each day to the fullest and enjoy the joys each day brings covers me in comfort. But, I also see how much fear and anxiety this new normal holds.
I feel like I take 1 step forward and 2 steps back. But, I know I just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other as I embrace this new reality and learn to live in joy instead of sadness. In hope instead of fear. In faith instead of agony.
I will never be able to respond to all the calls, emails, texts, messages – but please know I appreciate your kind words of encouragement so very much. You are all too kind with your gushy compliments.